*sighs* Creative Writing - boring as can be. I have nothing to do except work on a character prompt - the unconscious thought one. And I'm in the middle of that right now, but I'm in a brain rut.
Lauren sat where Maegen usually sits, Maegen wandered to the other side of the room and zoned into music.
*pretends to think* Hmm...I don't know if Maegen's pissed or moody or mad at me, so I'll go with the "mad at me" choice. And I think Lauren sat next to me because of the whole...Yeah, if I mention that, I'll start crying again.
My response: sit in the middle. Away from both.
*singing* I could tell from the minute I woke up...it was gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day...Everybody knows that something's wrong...but nobody knows what's going on...
(Brief interlude with my bad singing.)
But actually this song fits. It really does. Which is why I'm listening to it. I am very slowly falling into the Smallville love-angst category of my usual modes.
The same analogy: Lois in personality, Chloe in soul. Watching Clark walking away, never giving me a second glance.
And yesterday, half of the family at the party was wondering why I hadn't found a guy yet.
Well, jeez - one's in college and taken (but that I don't mind so much), and one is beginning to hate me because of the way I am (that's what was going on in the last entry). Oh, and the other three crushes of mine - one's an asshole, the second's too shy, and the third's far too popular and Jock-ish to notice someone who's been helpful to him for the past four years.
*sighs* Yeah. They're gonna notice me. Sarcasm at its best.
I mean, it's tearing me up inside. It really hurts! And I want it to stop!! T_T
But odds are...it never will. Because, like I told Ben today before I went off to cry in the bathroom...*shrugs*
"I'm the girl who never gets the guy in the end."
That's the way it's always been. That's the way it will always be. -_-,
music: "Lonely Day" from Smallville